I used to have a tank a ran for awhile to keep feeder fish in but now my Oscars are so big I just toss them in 100 at a time and they eat those pretty damned quick. So that means I had an extra 10 gallon tank, full set up with hood, filter, heater, the works, just sitting around collecting dust.

So a couple of weeks ago I said what the hell and filled the tank. After a few days I added some bottom feeders (2 catfish, a snail). Then when the water had neutralized itself a bit I added a couple sharks.

They seemed to be healthy and doing well so I decided it was time to start buying some money fish, you know any fish at costs over $5 to me is a money fish. So today I gought 2 small varigated Angelfish. Now Angels are quite picky so who knows, in 2 days I might be telling you about them being dead but I am good with fish so I am keeping my fingers crossed. I also added 2 kuhli loaches which are among my favorite fish. All that is left to buy for this tank is an algae eater…as soon as there is some algae, and a Plecco which I would have bought today but they only had huge ones for $20. It is only a 10 gallon tank, I can do with 2 tiny ones for $1.99 at Walmart.

Anyway, that now makes 3 tanks (two10 gal and one 40 gal) and one 2 gallon bowl with a Betta and 2 snails. The other news to report is the first 10 gallon tank I had, which is filled with real river rocks I collected, I have now officially stated a test run with REAL PLANTS. The tank looked great before but now with the addition of real underwater plants it is looking even more like a small window into a stream bed or pond. I will keep you guys posted if the experiment succeeded or if the fish just gobbled down all the plants.

I love pond fish. Thanks for reading. See ya next time!

Well, Thanksgiving has come and gone without any fanfare. One down, one to go.

When I was a kid holidays were ok I guess. They would either be at our house or our Grandparents house and there was lots of food and arguing…sometimes…but I guess we had fun in our own bazaar way. When ever we were at my Grandparent house we would always have mustard pickles, which my Grandfather would cook and then can them himself, and cheez whiz on celery. We would have either Turkey, Ham, or Lasagna, but we would always have an apple pie, a coconut custard pie, and a pumpkin pie. Of course I’d have a slice of all three, hence the very early start to my obesity!

Anyway, now I am an adult and holidays suck my hairy cheesy balls!! I suffer from Bi-Polar Disorder so it is a crap shoot as to whether I will be in a depressive cycle so right off the bat I have a 50-50 chance of a shitty holiday. And when I refer to holiday I mean from Thanksgiving, through Christmas, and all the way up to January 23…my birthday. As an adult you have to be able to make your own fun during the holidays and during a depressed period “fun” just ain’t at the top of the list. Plus I have a very detached family who never seems to remember to invite me to their homes, or call, or give a rats ass whether I am alone on a holiday in general. SO if I am going to do anything at all I have to make my own good time or get lucky and have a friend take pity on me and invite me over for the day.

This year, luckily seems to be going quite well and by well it doesn’t suck complete ass. I seem to be in a pretty good mood, not “happy” but not depressed and I seem for some odd reason craving company which goes totally against my Social Anxiety disorder. Thanksgiving has come and gone so fast that I barely had time to even realize it was a holiday. The one bright spot in my day was my greatest friend ever, Robin…my adopted Mom. She was kind enough to bring me over a really tasty plate of food, Turkey with all the trimmings. It was delicious and it meant alot to me that someone was thinking about me on the holiday.

Anyway, there are no mustard pickles anymore, I hope my Grandfather is resting in Peace because he really went out of his way to show us kids a good time as we grew up. There are no more celery with cheez wiz…thank god! I guess holidays really are for children and as adults we need to create our own special moments. Me? I have come to consider holidays as just another day that interferes with regular mail delivery. I am hoping this good mood, well, stable mood hangs around until January so my birthday isn’t completely depressing. I think we shouldn’t make a big ass deal of peoples birthdays when we are growing up because as an adult you have this feeling like you should somehow have this big party and celebration and for loners like me who have very little friends, a celebration just ain’t happening!!

Yeah, Yeah, poor me. I know, it sounds as if I am some Emo whiney bitch but I am not trying to complain. This is my life and it is just the way it is, I accept it. I just thought I would share with those lucky people who have great holidays and lots of friends and great celebration that we all don’t have it like them. I hope everyone with a close, loving family appreciates every celebration, every holiday, every birthday, wedding, or graduation. You are lucky to have such love and happiness in your life…appreciate every minute of it. Some of us have a more lonely existance, granted in my case it is somewhat self-inflicted, but there are lots of lonely people who would love to trade places with you.

Anyway, here is to me having a better than usual holiday filled with more smiles than tears and hopefully including some contact with people…but don’t you all hold your breath on that one.

One of my oldest fish died today. It was a red oscar and I can’t even remember how old it was. I wish I would have named it but I generally don’t name my fish unless they are crazy or strange in some way. It was a huge fish and all the other fish in the tank are huge too so replacing it with a new fish is gonna be hard…cuz they will get eaten!

This is really making me sad cuz I had the fish for the longest time and it seems like that fish was just always in the tank and now that it is gone I’m gonna miss it. I wish I know how it died but I think it was just old because the pH is fine, ammonia levels fine, water is clear as a bell. I hope it wasn’t me because I think I may have starved it to death. I put 100 feeders in the tank a week ago and I don’t really pay attention to make sure each oscar eats a feeder everyday. Only thing I can think is that it wasn’t eating the feeder fish and when there is feeders I don’t feed the fish food everyday so it just may have starved to death. I feel so badly right now.

Where the fuck did this year go? I can’t remember one worthwhile thing I did this year. As you get older life seems to go by faster…damn the fourth dimension to hell!

That’s all.

Since I cannot have a dog or cat in the apartment where I live I have fish…lotsa fish. I have a nice size tank (40 gal) with 5 Oscars, 3 Firemouths, 2 pleccos, and a couple catfish.

I just added 100 feeder fish last nite and at least half of them are gone already, those Oscars eat them like potato chips.

In another 10 gallon tank I have a few gouramis, a kuhli loach, and some other assorted little fishies. I love my Oscars but I like this tank as well cuz it has all river rocks in the bottom and really looks natural.

Lastly, I  added a new tank to my collection! I got me a nice male Betta and a cool ass fish bowl. Yippee!!